Ok. I’m putting on happy face and gonna pull the energy form the depths. Fuck I’m not going to mess this up just because I can’t deal. So world, I’m coming back and no one will know the better and meanwhile I need to concentrate and find neutral ground. I took an extra bupropion this morning but the clonazepam they said only at night. I wish the bu hurried up and make me happy so I don’t have to care about the ugly or at least have the ability to push it aside till I can pummel it later. Happy happy happy. I will not be forceful. I will not be opinionated. I will agree. I will just stay low low low.