Not sure what to do, put smiley face on even if i feel horrid inside and let it fester in there or maybe find someone to call back home. I can only smiley face so long before it eats me up but i don’t want to mess with hugh’s time here by making him even more upset with me than he already is. on my monti scale i am about a 3, 1 being bad and 10 being good.
Sigh, hate this. seriously always feel like the black widow spider, not sure i can ever keep the web clean, best if no one comes to visit because as hard as i try i don’t seem to get it right and then i feel bad because i wanted to, but i failed, again.
maybe ill try Amers, she should be at work.